1000 | Kaarawan ko.
kwatro otso dose
april 20, 1990 | 22 years na pala. hehe
22 years of existence.
thankful ako at naka-abot ako sa ganitong age, though minsan ang morbid ko lang thinking kung makakalagpas pa ba ako sa current age ko. yep morbid at nega ako, BUT IM NOT SUICIDAL. naiisip ko lang yung mga what ifs…
what if ganito…
what if ganyan…
haha. mukha ako tanga minsan pag nag-iisip ako ng ganyan. lol
saka ko naisip ang blessed ko palang tao na nabigyan ng isa pang taon. madai ako mistake this years, bad decisions, bad attitude… basta BAD. TMI
BASTA THANKFUL AKO SA MGA TAONG NAGING PARTE NG BUHAY KO:
Family|sa nanay at tatay ko na kahit minsan nakakaaway ko i mean madalas pala. haha (pasaway kasi eh), sa mga kapatid (though di kami masyado close lahat), sa mga tito at tita, sa mga pinsan (hahah. the best na mga pinsan. :D)
College Friends | sa mga G.E. thank you, kahit ilan lang talaga sanyo ang ka-close ko talaga… alam ko kung sino talaga ang tunay na kaibigan sanyo, salamat sa tulong lagi pag magpapaturo ako. :D , at sa mga lagi ko nakukwentuhan ng storya ng buhay ko. ahahaha. salamat sa pakikinig.
sa mga naging kaibigan ko na sa EE ngayon. SALAMAT sa pagtanggap. :D mahaba habang taon pa pagsasamahan nating lahat. eenjoy natin ang college life. :D.
H.S Friends (True friends) | ang mga pinaka matagal ko ng mga kaibigan na laging andyan. :D , di nga lang physically pero pwede na digitally. [hi-tech kami eh… :D]. salamat kasi lagi kayo andyan kahit bihira tayo magkita sa isang taon. hehe pero pag nagkikita tayo parang kahapon lang ang nag daan. haha.
kay Pepay at Luigene, salamat salamat salamat. :D
ahahah. ang drama ko, basta sabi nga sa smart LIVEMORE.
I have but one candle of life to burn, and I would rather burn it out in a land filled with darkness than in a land flooded with light.
-John Keith Falconer
^^,
999
kwatro siete dose
an inspiring article about letting go:
letting go.
have you ever had that feeling that things get a little too crazy, everywhere around you seems a little too noisy, so much so that you can hardly hear yourself think?
it has been wonderful to be able to get some quiet time even just for one day.
i realized one important thing, that we actually all know already, but just need to be reminded of..
let go of clutter in your life.
whether it be material or emotional clutter, we gotta learn to let go. there are too many things in life that stress us out already - work, errands, duties, bills, traffic, issues among friends, relationship issues, family problems. there are many things in life we have no control of, so what we can control, we must.
let go of envy.
why does she have this and i don’t?
why can’t i go where they go?
why her and not me?
whatever it is you see in or with others that you wish you had, take comfort in the fact that you also have something that they do not have. you set of experiences, your struggles, the people who love you, no one else has that but YOU. let go of envy and take pride in the things you have that others do not.
let go of pretensions.
you’re too shy to do this cause people might judge you.
you’re afraid to talk to her because she might not like you.
you don’t want to share your talent cause you might get embarrassed.
if you yourself hinder yourself, if you yourself stop yourself, if you yourself judge yourself, then what is left for you? how can you expect others to believe in you if you don’t believe in yourself? nobody is perfect. stop worrying about what others might think and go for it. you are the only one getting in your own way.
let go of closed-mindedness.
each and every one of us are different. we have different ideas, values, opinions, likes, dislikes, and biases. you cannot force your beliefs on anyone. if you are going to stress yourself because others do not share your thoughts, then you will be stressed forever. avoid thinking that your way is the only right way. learn more and be happy with your life by being open to how different people think.
again, these are things we all know already.. but sometimes, with all the distractions around us, we tend to hold on to these unnecessary things that hinder our happiness and peace of mind.
and we all want happiness and peace of mind, don’t we? :)
-Bianca Gonzales (www.iamsuperbianca.com)
“Letting go has never been easy, but holding on can be as difficult. Yet strength is measured not by holding on, but by letting go.”—Len Santos
997
kwatro-cinco-dose
4 days left.
“Inch by inch, we’re moving closer, Feels like a fairytale ending. Take my heart, this is the moment. I’M MOVING CLOSER TO YOU…”
-Never the stranger (moving closer)
a simple song that cathes my interest. :D
‘am so hooked with this song recently. ang ganda lang ng meaning nya at may sense.
996
kwatro kwatro dose.
gumising ako ng maaga kasi nga kuhaan ng classcard namin sa circuit analysis I (major namin na na-bagsak ko last sem… sadly regular dapat ako ng dahil lang sa subject nato nagkasummer ako this year, though wala naman talaga ako naintindihan sa prof namin dun last semester ok lang na inulit ko sya.)
bago ko kuhain yun grade pimila muna ako sa cashier para bayaran yung remaining balance ko sa tuition fee P1000.00 lang naman na, pero hassle parin kasi ang aga ko na dumating napaka haba na ng pila pang 204 na ako nung namigay na ng ticket para sa cashier anyway tyaga tyaga nalang sa pila since kasalanan ko namn kung bakit late na ako nag-bayad ng balance ko sa tuition ko. [nagastos ko kasi yung pang bayad nung binigay sakin ayun nag-ipon pa ako bago ko mabayaran ulit, mahirap kasi mag-enroll ng summer kung may balance ka pa sa cashier. pipila ka pa ulit ng dalawang beses kasi di ka makakapagenroll kung may remaining balance ka]
ayun nag start ako pumila ng as early as 8.00am then nakarating na ako sa cashier na pass 10.00am more than 2 hours ako nakatayo sa pila para lang magbayad sa cashier, nagkasabay sabay kasi mag babayad para sa graduation saka sa mag-eenroll na incoming freshmen na highschool.
after ko pumili dumeretso muna ako sa 3rd floor ng engineering building para tignan sa faculty yung prof namin ng circuits pero wala sya daw dun namimigay na daw ng classcard. then after ko lumabas ng faculty nakita ko sa may labas ng dean’s office sa may shelf na nandun yung finals namin ng prob (recent post). at nagulat ako sa score namin. 20/100 almost lahat kami yan ang score. kakahiya, even yung dean’s lister samin naka 30/100 lang. diba ganun kahirap yung subject nmin. but luckily i pass that subject. :D
then after ko kuhain yung akin nakakita ako ng isang classmate then sabi nya nasa room 210 (ee lab) daw prof namin nag-cocompute ng grade sa circuits. since ang passing lang naman namin in that subject is 30% believe it or not, confident ako na mataas ang grade na makukuha ko.
ayun naghintay kami sa room 210 para macompute yung grade, no nervous feeling at all. confident eh. then distribution na ng grade so expected ko is kahit mga 2.25 man lang ang grade but ang nakita ko is 3.00 both lecture and lab. tthat was na moment na biglang nag bago yung mood ko. from a confident mood biglang up side down. naiinis ako yung classmate ko 2.50 ako 3.00? then i was like: what the hell happened? inaadmit ko mababa ako ng both quiz 1 and 4, pero alam ko pasado yun. quiz 2 and 3 sure ako mataas ako dun, alam ko tama lahat ng mga nasagot ko. and midterm at finals pinerfect ko. TRES lang ako sa circuits? Anyare bakit naging ganun? given the fact na 30% lang yun passing impossible naman na ata na 3.00 lang makukuha ko, kasing grade ko lang yung mga di masyado nag-aaral.
i mean, yung pinagpuyatan ko ganun lang…
nakakapang lumo yung malaman mo na 3.00 lang makukuha mo since matataas yung grades na nakuha mo. NO FAIR indeed.
what worst is yung sinabihan ka ng classmate mu na mas mataas sayo ng “ok lang yan, pasado naman eh”
hindi ok lang na pasado ka lang kung alam mo naman na you deserve more than what you got.
the fact na may mga nakuha pa akong plus points… diba?!
haist, nakakpang lumo talaga, ayoko lang talaga magreklamo kanina….
nakakaasar yunh pinaghirapan mo napunta lang sa wala. not actually wala pero dapat pala di nalang ako nag-effort kung ganun lang pala.
NO BIGGY JUST DISAPOINTED.
“I was waiting for something extraordinary to happen but as the years wasted on nothing ever did.”—Charles Bukowski
now playing: Safe and Sound
“just close your eyes, the sun is going down, you’ll be alright no one can hurt you now… come morning light, YOU AND I’LL BE SAFE AND SOUND…”
RANDOM FACT:
i have this BAD HABIT na kapag may pinapagawa sakin, or favor tas di ko gusto yun gagawin o di ko lang feel yun pinapagawa.
sasabihin ko di ko natapos o di ko nagawa or nag-iisip ako ng alibi na kesyo ganito kesyo ganyan, pero ang totoo ayoko lang dun sa pinapagawa. i ended updissapointing people who ask favor from me kasi nga naman ayoko gawin yun bagay na di ko gusto.. lalu kunyari design. lolz.
sorry, choosy lang talaga ako.
*syempre exemption is always present. haha… bias ko lang.
now you know.
